I need a new environment. A new setting to forget the past and look towards the future. I have seen this small city blow up into an absolute mess. I sat in traffic going home today for 45 minutes. The urban sprawl, the less than spectacular weather, the people and events I think about everyday, the things I want to forget, they all relate to me needing to leave. I feel as if this town is like a fog. They say Calgary is the new metropolis, the hustle and bustle of the west, where the cream of the crop come to make their living. The cream of Canada, it's true. Rich and thick is what it is. I used to see luxury automobiles and estates, and think to myself, one day, hopefully I can acquire this. I've seen first hand what working everyday, all day will do to you. By the end of the day you'll be so stressed, you'll simply collapse and want to sleep. Then you'll do it again tomorrow. Then, by the time you retire, you'll have lost so many years off your life, you won't have enough time to spend all your money. Where I want to go though, is up in the air. I intend to take all my finances out of the bank, work plenty for these remaining few months and leave, go far, far away. I am up throughout the night dreaming of when I was still in junior high, thinking of all the people who unfortunately are no longer in my life. It saddens me how quick we grow up, and how just as quick we lose touch of those people and those things that truly matter to us. Think back, back to a time when you didn't smoke, or didn't do drugs, didn't need alcohol to enjoy your friday nights. Think about it hard enough, and you'll begin to feel just as sick as I am feeling now. They say each generation surpasses their parents in success and wealth. Well, I know I won't, and frankly I don't want to. 'Memory is an awful curse. With age it just gets much worse.'